Sometimes, believe it or not, I have trouble staying motivated. And there are times when I procrastinate.
At first I used to fight it and tell myself that I was a horrible person if I wasn’t 100% focused and in the game. As time goes on I have been trying to be more mindful of my thoughts and forgiving of myself and letting go of the guilt of not being 100% on and focused all of the time was an important step.
One of the things that I have been finding these days is that these days most of my motivation and focus issues revolve around being physically or emotionally exhausted. The worst is when it is a combination of the two.
This past weekend was certainly a doozie, knocked off my rocker by a conflict that was something I should have been able to let go of and not worry but my anxiety ran high, my worry overflowed, and everyone in the house was affected. Emotionally frayed I had trouble sleeping and today I face the combination of emotional and physical exhaustion.
Today I have been mildly productive. I have taken the syllabus for each of the summer classes and broken down all of the information in them to create a project in Asana.com for each class complete with due dates, priorities, and reminders.
But there are a few things I am not motivated to do today, procrastinating. Someone once told me that procrastination sometimes is there to tell you something is wrong, a stop gap, to force you to stop and look closely at what it is you are supposed to do and fix whatever is wrong before you move forward.
Today I was supposed to record several head shot videos for a few classes. Today rather than find myself further exhausting myself to put out a sub-standard video I’m choosing to stop and look closely at what it is I’m supposed to do and fix what’s wrong before I move forward. I’m going to rest so that I can record quality videos later this evening or tomorrow.
Finding the balance between being 100% on and focused versus making sure that you are well rested, healthy, and properly taken care of isn’t exactly a balance.
Unless I am well rested, healthy, and properly taken care of I am unable to effectively focus and be productive.
This is one of the things I struggle with teaching online. It is so easy to push and push and push until there is nothing left. It is so easy to push yourself into exhaustion and crash. But I can’t.
As hard as it is when there is work, housework, kids, and their homework. Amid all of this that needs to be pushed through it is so easy to start with the work and forget the fuel.
In much of the Winter/Spring term I struggled and failed to keep my energy, motivation, efficiency, and focus up. I didn’t take enough time for myself, to ensure I was rested well enough, and I allowed myself to get exhausted and ragged. As the summer term begins I am trying to put an effort into “Remembering Myself”.
Through this effort I am hoping to see an increase in both my productivity as well as my enjoyment. I plan on focusing on water, walking, and sleep. Increasing the amount of all three.
What do you do to help remember yourself, to put your rest, health, and personal care are remembered so that you can have the energy to stay motivated, stay productive, be there for your family, and enjoy life?